Frankly, I haven't been inclined to do an entry as of late.
I've been acting pretty weird.
Stress?
Not quite.
Though I'd be lying if I said that I'm not worried in the slightest bit at the impending examinations.
Why is this happening?
I mean, I've been cool when it comes to examinations for as long as I can remember.
Back then in CHEC, I've always cackled to myself at the sight of panicky people who keep on exclaiming about their anxiety.
*Extracted from my 2007 entries*
I think worrying is futile - I mean, why worry when it isn't even going to change anything at all?
If you suck, worrying will not alter the fact that you're going to screw things up.
If you're good, then naturally you'd be able to score well for it.
That's reality for you.
So, what's the point of worrying?
I realize that I'll fall short of my own expectations for the upcoming exams.
My target, should you wonder, is nothing that falls below ninety-five.
Not that I mean to succumb to my will, but I wonder if it's alright this way.
I wonder if it's fine to think "I won't give up till this is through" and yet embrace the thought of a predestined failure at the same time.
At times like these, I honestly find myself to be academically-feeble.
That's something I hate myself for.
Just a thought, but I think it'd be wonderful if I were born smart.
